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The slightly deranged Keeper of the Frerard Demons~

i have an always-reply to comments policy. however, i don't reply to favs or watches (although i love them; there just isn't enough time for me to go around thanking you all individually). i'll often reply to llamas and i'll always reply to points. no watch for a watch, yadayadayada.


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Somehow, you've found the profile of myself, KilljoyAtHeart, also referred to as The Slash Goddess, Keeper of the Frerard Demons, Sapphire Grenade, Lena, Gerard, Unclenalena, killjoy-gerard, and The Puppetmaster.

Some quick things about me:
:bulletblue: I'm a sophomore in high school.
:bulletblack: I'm straight.
:bulletblue: I'm 5'7.
:bulletblack: I live in Arizona.
:bulletblue: I'm so guilty of loving pumpkin spice lattes it isn't even funny and I am so sorry :stare:

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However, I'm most active on here (and tumblr) so if you want to message me privately and quickly, send me a note. Like I said I answer all my feedback messages but it can take a while. If you ever just need to talk or need some cheering up, I promise I'm here. I won't judge you, I won't hate you or anything stupid like that. Part of my purpose for being on here is to make a difference in people. I know sometimes life is a pain in the ass. Quite frankly, sometimes, life just sucks. Trust me, I know, I'm human. But I also know how much a simple kind word can help. And that's what I try to do.


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Just some people I'm pretty much in love with:
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Journal Entry: Wed Oct 1, 2014, 3:22 PM

keeper of the frerard demons

sorry sorry sorry i kept forgetting to post this woops.


we might as well start this out with the panorama of Salzburg that I took from the highest tower of Hohensalzburg Castle. there's some Alps (or at least the Pre-Alps) in the background. and ignore my dad...:XD: (please full view for the true beauty lol)

more about the castle later, though. next we have Salzburg Cathedral. pretty. yes. also some lovely horses. yeeee.

salzburg as we were riding in on the train (metro?? what is it called help)

horse butts. my family and i just thought this was funny because the guy was not directing the horses at all, just talking to the tourists, and the horses were like 'yeah we got this'

some really beautiful dogs we saw (also i was laughing so hard when we saw the german shepherd because we saw none in germany but a ton in austria.)

some gorgeous flower gardens (and the castle in the background yeee)

mikey way's favorite statue and a pegasus fountain
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are you sensing a theme with the horses here? am I.
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let's take a coffee break from the horses. (funny story: somehow, every day we ended up drinking cappuccinos every day at four pm, which is a very German thing to do according to our German friends we were staying with?? idk but let me tell you this was some good coffee)
also mango gelato and the castle in the background. it was a good day.
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are you ready for the castle?
you sure?
okay, okay!

panorama from the (many, many, many) stairs leading up to the castle.
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i mean um it was sorta pretty *sniffs* okay very pretty and very cool *wipes tear* i am a castle nerd

there was a torture chamber. and a dungeon (but not the fun kind, sorry.)
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but there were cute and slightly more princessy/disney aspects, too. look at these cute flowers and awww 

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a view fit for a king *laughs* see what i did there...?

oh yeah...there was a whole room of the castle full of really creepy medieval marionette puppets? no...I'm not kidding., I'll show you.
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here's a lake we went to (also in austria, although we kind of accidentally went to austria...we didn't know we were there until we checked google maps and were like oh okay new country wHY DID WE NOT HAVE TO SHOW OUR PASSPORTS because americans are fucking crazy about identification and national security or whatever I don't even know. europe, y'all are chill and cool about that, which is A+. you're doing it right.) anyway,fullview the lake bc it was awesome
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a flower and a weird bug; the river that flowed out of the lake
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we would've gone swimming in the lake, but we chose the worst possible day to go because it started raining and i was wearing literally my shortest pair of shorts and a white t-shirt like WOW ELENA COULD YOU HAVE PLANNED FOR THIS ANY WORSE? I DON'T THINK SO. but one of the boys we were staying with was a gentleman and gave me his rain jacket...i felt bad tho bc nobody else had rain jackets so i returned it and we all shivered and suffered together. and then we got ice cream. logic? no.

okay, can I just say that the Paris airport (Charles de Galle? something like that...? oh man I am sorry I can't remember all these names) is fucking weird?? like...I don't even know. it's all crammed together and cluttered and the Munich airport was not like that...idk is it just me or is it a legitimately weird place? pretty, but uh...yeah.

and finally...on our long, long flight back (we literally went across the atlantic and then across the US *pained smile* i love living on the west coast) we flew over Greenland and it was one of the coolest things I've ever seen. THERE ARE POLAR BEARS SOMEWHERE DOWN THERE. and gLACIERS. (melting glaciers. thanks global warming)
On our 23 hours of flight time (roughly) back, we had light the whole time because we were chasing the night across the ocean...not exactly fun. everyone on that plane was sleeping and i was like 'how can you do this' so I just watched Captain America: Winter Soldier, The Lego Movie, and Django Unchained over and over again and made my painful and slow way through A Midsummer Night's Dream. (horribly ironic, because it was midsummer but it was not night and i was certainly not dreaming)

Anyway, it was a pretty great trip. Sorry for this monster of a journal entry...I hope this gave you guys at least a little entertainment :'D

much love,


  • Mood: Cheerful
  • Listening to: Dangerous -Big Data-

Current Awesome Novel

by Ellen Hopkins

“Life was good before I met the monster.
After, life was great.
At least for a little while.”

My dA Family

My dA family :P
TheChimnySweepThe Frank to my Gerard <3
sashabrambleshadow My mommy.
KilljoyEchelon My Danish tard
BananaJoy24 My weird sister :'D
schizophrenic-clown My crazy aunt
sfregiato My creepy cousin
AndYourBirdCanSiing My adopted sister and Rayard fangirl buddy
adorkableXbabyXwhale My incredible pet whale
DGenerationX8990 A banana...?
Balloons504 My sister <3
partee-bunni-killjoy My daughter
finobutter That polar bear kid
Tumbles-Girl My sister
keyanaojaghi Another sister :huggle:
XOHappyEmo My little sister, who is Frerard obsessed.
L0ST-IN-DR3AMS My darling hubby B|
livinginthesky My waifu
XOBillieMCRart My lover. :heart:
MoochingLeech My older sister whom I love to give kisses to.
DaWeirdo My second wife, and the "Fre" to my "rard"
radioactiverose42 My third wife :heart: :heart: :heart:
withinmeloveresides1 My family friend neighbor who loves Rammstein and My Chem
HymnOfShadows My Mikey (well, my non IRL Mikey)
Solai-Tsukada My grandmother!
oceandvst My pet dragon that eats sparkly rainbow tacos ._.
Dlola My secret lover. ;)
unlockeverydoor My fourth wife! She gave me a ring made of Babybel cheese wax c: She's just so incredibly....ahem ;P
xTheGhostOfMyselfx Casper, my own friendly ghost <33
writer-in-agony My older werewolf sister~

I bestow upon you all: Gerard Way Pictures, Images and Photos


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Grim-Grinning Featured By Owner Oct 5, 2014  Student Traditional Artist

Thank you so much for the favorite Heart  I really appreciate it!
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SyncopatedRhythm Featured By Owner Aug 5, 2014  Student General Artist
Hallooo! I found you through the rock of ages fic and I love your work! Omf. <3 frerard forever
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Thanks for the favorite :)
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Thanks for adding Beaten up to your favorites. I'm glad you like my art :)
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Happy birthday!!!! :heart: :party: 
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Happy birthday!!!
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scroll down trust me this will put  a smile on your face, make your day, or help you <3 

Every night , someone thinks about you before they go to sleep,

At least fifteen people in this world love you.

The only reason someone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you

There are at least two people in this world that would die for you

You mean the world to someone.

Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.

When you make the biggest mistake ever,something good comes from it.

When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look.

Always remember the compliments you've received.

Forget the rude remarks.

So if you are a loving friend, send this to everyone on your list including the person that sent it to you.

Tonight at midnight your true love will realize they like you.

Something good will happen to you between 12 in the morning and four o'clock pm tomorrow, it could be anywere . Get ready for the biggest shock in your life

Do not break this chain. Send this to fifteen people in fifteen minutes !!

Make Someone else's day! Help get a smile on someone's face! Help someone out! <3 remember that your loved
F.R.I.E.N.D.S. 😉
= Fight for you 
= Respect you
= Involve you
= Encourage you
= Need you 
= Deserve you 
= Save you

Send this to all your friends & me if I'm one......If you get 4 back you are liked but if you 
get 7 back then you are seriously loved 😊 Heart
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